This song absolutely wrecked me today. I’ve been struggling this week… really struggling. Trying to understand why certain things are happening. Trying to understand certain things in my own life. And I just can’t. I don’t feel like I am equipped to be where I am in my life right now, in all areas. I’ve had conversations with God and told Him that He messed up. That I’m not the right person for anything that He’s handed me. Not any of it. 

But… I am where I am. I am where I am. Me. Not anyone else. And there is a reason for it. Even if I don’t know what it is at this very moment. 

Aside from my own life, I’ve been burdened in my heart with all the tragedies that have happened this past week. The unimaginable heartbreak for those who’ve lost loved ones. Tragedies happen everyday, but when they hit closer to home, they often seem to hit closer to the heart. I can’t explain it. But I know others know what I’m talking about.

One of my favorite Bible verses has always been Romans 8:28, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Not everything that happens is good. Not everything that happens is God’s will. But He works it all together. Even the unimaginable. Somehow, some way. People coming together. Love being shared. Hope being poured out. Beauty from ashes. 

This is me being extremely transparent right now… all I have is hurt and these 4 words… thy will be done.